What's with TOC not updating for a month? Before I throw any excuses your way, the present has good news: I'm just finishing the last drawing for page uhhh wherever we're at, I don't remember... 14 or 15 is it? Yay. So The Obsidian Canticle will get an update in the next days, and another page before the end of January.

I got pretty (change that to horribly) blocked over the holidays. It's never a time of year that I handle well, but whatever. By blocked I mean I couldn't do the simplest image well. I changed the new page's layout 3 times and filled, count them, 7 pages of drawings for the 1 and a half I usually need. Last week I returned to a less irksome art level but I became sick. Great timing. I don't think it makes the delay less bad, it only serves to satisfy your curiosity as to where I was. (And when i say "Your" I'm referring to the invisible man in that corner over there. Don't touch my stuff. Don't move them. Please feed my OCD.)

Delayed yes. But the comic will still get its 2 scheduled pages this month. I've slept 7 hours in the last 60. I'll grow dark eye circles down to my knees but I'll make the pages happen. Yeah. And it took me 5 minutes to calculate that. I really need sleep.

Well the causes for the delay are stored in my memory archives now (under Unlikely Lessons to Learn From Without Repetitive Failure), and I'll hopefully remember it the day I'll choose to start another online comic without creating some sort of buffer first. Initially I thought I'd draw TOC entirely then put it online. I forget why I changed my mind. Nothing to do with money prospects though. So anyway in the beginning I was putting a page whenever, and nobody was visiting the site so it didn't matter that I had no update buffer. Then after I listed the comic on a few places some humans actually started visiting my loony planet, which made me happy and scared and neurotic and scared again. But I'll leave fear out of this one. It was a good encounter with the human specie. There was no probbing involved. Point is: a buffer would've been great right now because I hate disapointing people. So I'm very sorry to all of you who are waiting for an update. Your visits mean so much to me and I appreciate your interest. Thank You. And I'm obviously no fan of fillers. I don't exactly mind them in other comics, I just don't like using them. They remind me of other psychological relationship patch-ups you know? It's not my thing. Not for this particular project anyway, since it doesn't have a set day for new pages. If it did we'd all be yawning over another useless sentence here... Why am I still typing? Gawd.

A happy, creative, and satisfying 2008 to everyone.

Be kind to yourselves. We all suck in many similar ways, but we're still ok. I hope we can reach for the largest possibilities within us, away from external control, whether it's obvious or stealthy. The world is a reflection of our hopes, fears, delusions and inner statements. It's time we projected ourselves consciously to the outside. I don't care what people choose to be, but it does bother me when it comes from unconscious places. It bothers me because the unconscious is controlled by factors that work against our personal freedom and towards our slavery to archaic principles, or to some system that only benefits a small minority.

I'm tired and I sound crazy. LOL. But I can't express love very well. There has to be a simpler way.

All my love. Good night and good dreams.

~.~